Days of My Life

will you feel better, better, better,? will you feel anything at all?

i wanted to go to the mall. but it's raining pretty bad outside.
i guess i'll just stay home and drink hot choc in stead.watching how i met your mother makes me miss the states so much. i saw one episode where ted had to take njtransit train to see stella, his gf from new jersey. ahh, i miss riding njtransit. i miss fat cat, the village. i really do miss that place. well, that place is full with nyu people. we wouldn't say we're from rutgers, new jersey. again. NEW JERSEY. lol. so we pretended to be new york university students. hahaha.

taking njtransit to go to the village (this was the only time i took the train to the village all the way from rutgers, we usually drove there)

see, i got the red stamp. why? i forgot to bring my passport! so they thot i was underage. but who cares, i don't drink.

this is where the band is usually playing. the-couch-view. i normally lie down and fall asleep on that couch. boo me!

anyways, there are so much stuffs going on in the city. u just need to explore one by one. n it never bores u. ah. i miss it.

don't get me wrong. i do miss new jersey too. i miss rutgers. i miss hoboken (that's like my second home to rutgers) having my 'sister' around in hoboken helped me fall in love with that place. ah. im thinking of frozen monkey's deserts.

ok look at that. brownies with vanilla ice cream with lots n lots of whipped cream on top of it! heaven!

need i say more?

i heart this place. and i love nadia so much. and i miss her like crazy!! ;(

standing still, i'm gonna stand still, stiller than the stones.

i am seriously getting sick and tired of the same routines everyday.

mr. job, mr. job, where have you been?

if you're so strong then resolve the weakness in me

"i went to a candy store. i saw one candy and i liked it. i wanted to have it, but it belongs to another kid. i kind of took it from him because he left the candy on the cashier table, but everyone was looking. they were all staring at me and my mom came by and said "no, u cannot do that, it's his candy. it is wrong to take someone's stuff!" and i said "but he hasn't paid for it yet" and my mom replied "but he took it from the shelf and brought the candy to the cashier, obviously he wants to have it" alright, deep down, i knew i shouldn't take it but i wanted it so bad!! it's my favorite candy and i know i cannot get it from any other store. so i cried. and put it back.

though i never wanted to".

hello, is it me you're looking for?

yes. it is you ;)

do you believe in karma?
yes.

do you believe in true love?
no. hurm. maybe. hurm. somewhat?

do you believe in God?
DEFINITELY.

do you believe in yourself?
depends on the decisions i have to make.

do you believe in darwin's theory? (tiba2)
maybe 20% of it.

do you believe that you will reach your ultimate happiness?
yes. hopefully, in heaven. AMIN.

do you believe that you will find a job within a week from now?
nah. =P

just wanna know ya, just wanna talk to ya.. i wanna hear about your day..

tiba2 rasa nak update blog. =)

i miss the States, i really do. i'm enjoying myself here but i miss the States. i wish i could cut myself into two pieces and let each be in different continents.

tho i was only there for four years, i really miss my friends there. i miss the lifestyle, i miss the city, i miss the places, i miss the food, i miss the people, i miss FAT CAT, i miss the weather, and oh yea i miss my FREEDOM! haha. sorry mak, ayah, abang2, kakak, i really appreciate your concerns, it's just sometimes i can't help myself from getting a little bit upset whenever i receive calls from either my mom or my brother asking "yati dekat mana? bila nak balik?" haha. i dun usually get mad when i receive such calls but i just feel guilty and i hate feeling guilty. so what i do now is, i will try to text them as often as possible to let them know where i am, with who i am hanging out with, what time i will be back etc. and of course, not to go out THAT much. ah, and another thing is, im running out of money. (BEEP! BEEP! BEEP! DO LOOK FOR A JOB NOW!!!) --> yes, job-hunting alarm, i know i know.

alright, besides missing the States, and enjoying my life here, i got to know new people. it's good to expand the connection, and to know new people but i have to be careful which one to trust or not to trust. i mean, whatever, but i'm kinda suprised with myself. i like meeting new people, and building new friendship, and learning more about life. at the same time, i love keeping in touch with old friends, and seeing how the old friends maturing and starting to think like a fine, wise, beautiful person, from a gawky 13 year old kid. yup2, it's all about EXPERIENCES.

and today, i learned something new. =)

enjoy your day, people!

knew the signs. wasn't right. i was stupid for a while.

omigod. i so freaking hate programming. i do NOT understand why i decided to take this class. PERL for Bioinformatic is the worst class I've ever taken in Rutgers. It's sad that I have to end my last day of the last semester of my FINAL year in college undergraduate studies working on this most annoying, upsetting, programming final project. so pathetic. Did i mention that I cried while working on the project? I don't even need this class for my degree requirement. Why did I take it? Oh, because I thought it would be a 'cool' class, which i assumed that i would be good at this, and by the end of the semester, i would be able to write codes to find genes in a genome? how cool is that? but nope. i'm not good at this. and will never be. i gave up on programming. Anyways, while writing the codes, (and of course failed to get them run, for like freaking 1000 times), this song, "Out of Reach by Gabrielle" came out. Perrfecttt song for me and Mr. Programming!!

shut up and let me go.

it's the ting tings guys!!!
went to their concert on the first day of spring break, march 16th at terminal 5, new york city. they're great. better than i'd expected. hehe. so, here are some of the pictures taken during the concert. check out the videos too!! dekat jugak la dgn stage so the video is pretty clear, but a bit shaky due to gerakan2 mendengar music. so, the opening band is called hurm. i totally forgot..we couldnt understand them nways..they were shouting randomwords..a pretty bizarre band. i like the one with the white dress tho, she's so pretty and less 'vulgar'. the other two are seriously ANNOYING and sorry to say, disgusting. one of them, touched herself on the stage which i found very disrespectful and STUPID. they only performed for few minutes. THANK GOD!. n the ting tings showed up! they sang "the great DJ" as the first song. and ended the show with "that's not my name".